Thank you for your responses. It all has worked out for the best at the moment. I appreciate that I was in a dark place and have sort out help.

Okay, so others have made a good point about the transference of pain to your kids. But have you also thought about what else they'll inherit if you commit suicide? Not only will any debts be passed to them, what happens when they reach your age? I read an article once, written by the kids left behind, it said that they felt like the age their parent died at felt like a deadline for them. Like if they don't have their lives on track by that age, will they want to commit suicide as well? How can they live a day longer than that, knowing that even their own parent (role model) couldn't handle the pressures of living? Whose example will they follow?
Don't kill yourself over work shit. That's such a shitty reason. Save the suicide for something bigger. Like if you accidentally hijack a NASA rocket and get sentenced to life in a Thai prison. Or if you accidentally start a war. Go big or go home. None of this "oopsie I made a mistake at work, ta-ta".

You can get a new job with a criminal conviction! So many places don't even ask, I have fraud, theft and drug convictions from when I was 18 and involved with a terrible man, I'm 33 now and have never had a problem getting a job or persuing my career.
You can get through this!

There is another option, let God fix your problems. I have seen and experienced first hand the miraculous power of God in my own life. As someone who has attempted suicide myself I have had my life turned around through my relationship with God.

http://www.revivalcentres.org/our-stories/

Please tell family and friends you feel this way

You know what jail , if that’s what happens is not as bad as it seems! I say this from experience not shit on tv. Just get your affairs in order, someone to care for your kids, appoint an enduring power of attorney and get your valuables and keep sakes in long term storage and deal with the conquences head on.
Explain to your kids that people make shitty choices sometimes and there are conquences. Explain that you will not be able to call them everyday but you will always think of them. Always say I love yous at the beginning of the phonecalls cause the phone tend to cut out.

Once that part is dealt with, money is money. Who gives a fuck about money, love is priceless! as long as you get a roof over your head and food in your tummy’s, given we live in a first world country that is possible! Move areas for a fresh start if that’s what you need.

Your children love you more than you will ever know. life insurance, super funds etc will not mean a thing to your babies, they need you!

Where are you? I can meet you for coffee sometime. A face to face vent to a stranger that’s a non bias not judgemental listener can help in shitty situations like this!

Please don’t do this, not only for your children but everyone else that knows and loves you 💕💕💕

I felt like this about work. A friend also passed away which made it more difficult. I got through one day at a time. I’m still there (at work) working through the issue - l minimize my time spent there and spend more time with my kids. Try it - it will give you a reason to live.

Big hugs to you 💕 Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a better day for you xx hang in there it will get better every day.

Life insurance doesn't tend to pay out for suicides, so that will be in vain.

All you'll be doing is creating a massive void in your kids' lives, making them wonder why you chose to leave them.

As a child of a suicide "victim" i can tell you no ampunt of money would make this ok. Your will screw your kods life up. 10 years on and im so screwed up. I hate my mother for it

Insurance does work in those situations as far as I’m aware. I know someone who tried to fake their death, it was horrible as I know they were only doing it for money. I also listened to man who went to jail from 8years committing fraud at his work. It was incredible how much she was an evolved person even though like you, he clearly hit rock rock bottom when he got caught, with federal police and everything.

Read the fine print of your life insurance policy - some don’t be actually payout in the event if suicide

I don’t want to give too many details away but my husband commited a criminal offence at work. He lost his job and has a black mark against his name. It took time but he / we got through it.

You will learn from this. If you loose your job worst case you start an entry level job in a new industry and work your way back up from there.

Lots of people lose there jobs for many different reasons. Your not the only person going through this. It will take time. Seek professional help and you will get there.

Suicide is never a solution. It might end your hurt but it starts a lifetime of pain and suffering for many others.

Seek help from a helpline or a CAT team at your local hospital.

Think of it as a teachable moment for your children. Sometimes you screw up, but you own your mistakes and accept the consequences. Your kids won't want the money- they'll want their mum.

What did you do at work ?

Imagine the looks on their poor faces when they are told they'll never ever see you again. Please don't do it to them.
Its just work, it will pass.
I lost a parent to suicide in a similar circumstance. Everyday it hurts. I wonder didn't he love us enough? Even going to jail - at least you still see them and its not permanent. His sentence would have been over years ago. But I'm still without my dad.
Don't do it. Its only money. Please don't break their hearts, it'd hurt them everyday for the rest of their lives.

I knew a girl whose father committed suicide when she was young. She never got over it. Every day was a constant struggle and she missed him more than anything. She had a string of bad relationships, drug addiction, and sleezy jobs. Losing a parent is hard but losing one who chose to do it destroys a person.
Right now you need to get some help. Then look at your options. Ok, you fucked up - shit happens. So, what’s the options now? Go see a lawyer, see if you can work something out. It isn’t the end, it’s just the beginning and from this you will grow and become stronger. Reach out for help and speak to someone. It isn’t too late and death is not the only option here.

No no no it's not the answer. As someone who lost a family member to suicide I.can tell you. The family never recovers and for us it's been 20 years. Your kids don't give a fuck about your money they want you. It will also make the chance of them suiciding later in life greater if a parent does it. Don't do that to them. Life is bigger than one mistake no matter how big. Please call the suicide call back service they can talk 24.7 and also you can ask to be put on their couselling list for 6 free phone sessions 1300 659 467. Call legal aid and work with authorities regarding what happened at work and you will get through this.

Please, please seek help. Dying is not the answer here. Things can be fixed, money wise. It could take time, but it is fixable! Your children cannot be fixed if you leave them. Even if they are adults. Please, look at their faces and know that they need you. No matter what is happening, they NEED you. Seek help. Anywhere! Please.

I felt suicidal last night
My pain will be transferred to my kids and my hubby and others
Please seek help and take your meds everyday

The pain you’re feeling now will just be passed on to your kids. No amount of money would make that worth it. No, suicide is not the only solution

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem

Please phone a crisis support helpline like Beyond Blue. Things are never as dire as they seem in the moment. Your children need you more than money.