I need help to get thru this day..
Answered 1 year ago
Im in hell with a bad husband and we are at the end of our relationship. The details are too much for this forum.
Today i have to take the kids to the beach and be happy, but all i can think of is suicide.
Please someone out there, set me straight! GIVe me something to get thru and fake this day. Im in agony.
Have an answer?
I lost a parent to suicide. To this day I wonder why they didn't love me enough to keep trying. Please don't leave your babies, please. Don't break their hearts.
Feeling suicidal however is not normal and you need to seek help for that immediately. Think about this: when you take your life, the pain doesn’t end. It might end for you but you just pass that pain onto your children, your family, everyone that cares about you.
I’ve written this story on here before but here it is again. 7.5 years ago I was googling babysitters and trying to desperately arrange for one. My children weren’t going to find me dead and I wasn’t going to leave them alone. It would have been an “I’ll be here. If I’m not back in an hour call the police and tell them where I am”. My 4 year old daughter came out and saw me crying. I was upset, I didn’t want to miss out on watching my children grow up but at the same time I felt their only chance was without me in their lives. She wrapped her arms around me and told me “it’s ok mum. Tomorrow will be a better day, I promise”. How right she was. Tomorrow wasn’t the day after but months after. I got through it. It made me appreciate life more. It can be a struggle and isn’t always simple to go away. Last year I was contemplating suicide again. Again I’m glad I never did. When you are thinking there’s no way out it’s hard to see the light but I promise, tomorrow will be a better day. You just have to wait for your tomorrow to come and get help to reach it.
nothing lasts forever, and there is more in your control than you realise right now. Suicide means you remove that control, and any chance to remain a positive and loving influence in your children's lives.
set aside some time to think clearly, identify who in your life can help you...or who you need help from, and then use what control you have to get that help. not an easy journey, but one only you can make, and you are stronger than you realise.