Is divorce the next step?
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We're married 10 years. He's a good man, and a good provider. I try my best to make sure he's happy, feels loved and appreciated. We keep pretty traditional gender roles, he works and is in charge of the car and OCCASIONALLY the yardwork, and I do everything else. I'm a housewife and a stay at home mother.
I'm not happy. For some time now I've felt unappreciated and like he's only with me because our life together is convenient. He says he loves me, but I don't know if I believe that anymore. I think he loves the role I play in his life. Not me. I've told him many times I need him to show me more affection. I've even doubled down on my loving towards him. I treat him like a king. While I feel more like a scullery maid he fucks when he wants to.
My life at the moment is physically easy. But emotionally it's hard. He's made no effort to better our marriage. There seems to always be an excuse.
What can I do? Counselling would be a laughable suggestion to him. Is divorce the next step?
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Since I made this post, I had a good hard look at myself. A critical eye is sometimes the best gift we can give ourselves. A couple of you implied I should just suck it up. That's what I have been doing for the last few years. Alternating between begging him to change, and sucking it up because this is the way things are.
I've let him take the lead in how I allow myself to feel and that's neither fair nor helpful.
Others said I should take some ownership for my life choices. So thats what I'm doing now. I consented to this life. And I can force a change one way or another, just as much as he can.
Some said to study and seek fulfilment within myself independent from him. So I am. Whether that means that I'll eventually leave him, or our relationship improves will be evident over time. We are booking me into some courses next week when he returns home (he works DIDO). To be completed before spring. After which, I will be returning to the workforce in some capacity (even if that means scrubbing loos like one person said, a job is a job, and is a big part of feeling better about myelf and our situation).
I still love him immensely. I still, in my heart of hearts, know that I don't want this relationship to end. I will be taking the lead in bringing romance back into our daily lives, even if I'm the only one doing it. I will woo him. Because that's who I am. A lover. And loving him, makes me feel good about being me. And I'll be trying to find the romance in his actions and words. If he tells me he loves me, I'm going to take it that those words - however robotic they come across as - harbour many more affectionate terms, he may not feel comfortable expressing. When he calls me after a long hard day, I'm going to choose to see it as he desperately missed me and now wants to decompress with the woman he loves. It's a little sappy and sad sounding. But basically, in a situation where I could feel less than, I'm going to try and take it the opposite. And see the best. It's difficult to explain I think, and probably makes no sense. But it's my plan.
Thank you all for your time, and patience here.
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Oh God this is such a scary thing to think of. A single mother. Just like my own (although minus all her narcissism). A failed marriage, just like my parents.
My parents used to say how they were married for 20 years to outsiders but inside the house mum would talk about how unhappy she was to me and my siblings. We were in primary school. Then she'd say was staying for us. Even tho she was the one looking after us and bringing in the money.
The best thing she did for herself and us was separate from our father. I was at uni at that time.
After the separation she was so much happier and we were too because for so long us kids were telling her to separate.
I like this advice you got, go study something and set yourself up a bit.
Can you take up a hobby, sport or exercise- it might give you a new sense of purpose.
Men a simple creatures he probably likes his life with you and doesn’t see anything wrong. I’m sure he is comfortable and you provide him with security- what’s wrong with that in this crazy world? Look at it from his side he sees himself as the provider he does not get a choice. So he is making do the best he can. Good luck
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I think you need to tell him exactly where you're headed. Tell him you're considering divorce. Maybe he needs the harsh truth? I am not saying this to rub it in but we're the same (just together a bit longer) and we're so in love. So I don't want you to settle feeling unloved, must be really isolating on you. You deserve happiness so don't take anything less. Good luck hun xx