It's only just begun!!! (singing to the Carpenter's song)!!! :) The only one who can improve it, is you!!! Your kids never asked to be born, so start loving them, and having fun!!! Kids have moods, get used to it!!!! Find a hobby for yourself, start a business from home. There is so much you can do. You just have to have the motivation. If you get depressed, go see someone. Wait until the teenage years!!!! You had better prepare yourself now. No-one said life was meant to be easy!! But you have to make the most of it!!! Only one who can make you happy, is you!!!