I suffer from chronic insomnia and after seeing countless Dr's of different fields non have been able to help me, going on 3 years of this nightmare and im hurting really bad. I am constantly down and beyond fatigued. Its draining on my wife to the point she doesn't completely understand, we fight so much due to my irritability and mood when im running on no sleep for days. She tells me her period does the same to her so now every time she is on it she gets extra moody and irritable and feels entitled to it as i should understand her. She didn't use to be this way when we first got married. Unfortunately my condition has only gotten worse and i am doing the best i can to work full time, cook, clean help out as much as i can. She met me this way and i asked it was my biggest concern that this will get to her. I try my best i really do to not let her feel it but i am at the end of my rope and i feel i cant come home to relax or say i want to go to bed early, it has to be when the kids are not around. We fight for almost everything. She keeps tabs and scores on all i do or dont do and when we fight it all comes up so i feel like i am constantly walking on egg shells.

We have two boys from previous marriages and her son doesn't like mine even tho my son all he wants to do is play with him, he just doesn't and it shows in almost everything. When he is home he is her priority and that shows too, like whatever he wants and needs, its like i dont exist anymore and they boy knows it too, he knows mom will put him first in anything. And i am good to him i treat him with love care and respect, he is a good kid but she has let know "kids are priority here" I dont know how to feel about this because so many times i have put her feelings and emotions first over anyone even my own son. I just feel so lost in this marriage it all feels so wrong and i hurt because i do love her but i cant find genuine good in her. She doesn't care about my step daughter either which i raised since she was 4, she is now a teen and we have had so many fights because she cant fully accept and embrace her as part of the family, for no good reason just for not being blood.