I’d go out and fuck as many men as possible. That will give you your esteem back.

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I did it after a friend died it helped me deal with depression. At the same time I hit the gym, really helped my self confidence.

I would recommend against getting involved with someone until you have worked on yourself first. Otherwise you might attract the same type as your ex.

I can’t recommend anything but your first step should be leaving him. I’ve been in relationships that have left me questioning why I’m not good enough and then once I was out it hit me that nothing will be good enough for that person. When you stop looking at yourself through their eyes and start looking at yourself and who you really are you can start to rebuild. You will never be who you used to be, you will be stronger, wiser and more capable than ever before.

My heart breaks for you Darl. You have to find the strength within yourself to pull yourself up. Try to remind yourself of who you were before you were with this abusive pig and grab onto her and do not let go. Neighbours, friends and family will be a great resource in the re build of yourself and your life. Do not be afraid to ask for help and reach out to government agencies too. There are womens shelters and emergency help housing available. You need to leave this man, he is an abuser, call the police and have him charged then find a safe place to rebuild. Everything will work out in the end, you ned to make the first step before your partner escalates his abuse. Stay strong sister, help is all around you if you seek it out. Best of luck friend, hopefully in a few weeks or months you can update us. Sending love x

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