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I hate myself. The only reason I don't kill myself is because I couldn't do it to my children, I couldn't leave them and break their hearts.

I couldn't hurt them either. I can't talk to anyone about how I feel. I'm scared they will take them away from me. My partner doesnt understand this and I feel dumb telling him. I'm just stuck in this godawful feeling.
I don't know out it's a question or I'm just telling the universe.


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There are and have been so many women like you. I don’t know if it was the way we were raised that we think we have to be perfect, see all our flaws constantly and feel inadequate alongside feeling like our feelings come last to everyone else because we are the sacrificial one. You are probably a little too aware of your failings and as you grow as a person and work on these things they diminish. You can always work on yourself, look into meditation , abc podcasts have some. Then when you feel calmer write down what is bothering you or what little thoughts are going through your mind, at home or here, I get that you can’t communicate this to your partner, but there are professionals. I remember studying an arts degree in a foreign city and feeling so so down, I went to the psychologist on the Medicare plan and the first thing she is said is that he has half the art students in her office! I realised I wasn’t alone, and you aren’t either. Talk to one and be honest with your pain , it will help tremendously!

Please talk to your gp no one will take your kids away. Is there someone who you can talk to and will support you?

Go to the doctors, tell them you're struggling and you want to go on a mental health plan. It's sounds like you really love your children, so go and get help for not only yourself but for them. I have been where you are. And I am on the other side now and let me tell you it is worth the fight to get here! Please go and seek some professional help, you are worth it xx

Be happy you have kids

 You are a piece of work, you know that? I pity you.
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Pls seek advice. Lifeline, doctor etc. this is no way to feel. I hope you are ok and seek help pls!!!!!!!!

Don’t tell dr you are feeling suicidal cause your kids will be taken away and you will have supervised visits might be months or weeks
Tell dr you are crying for no reason and feel emotionally tired

Get some anti depressants from your doctor hun

 Some antidepressants make it worse and takes up to 6 to 8 weeks to see results
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